Todays Spread was King of Swords, IX of Cups, Wheel of Fortune.

I have to admit, Im not really insync about what the spread is meant to communicate to me. On the one hand I consider myself a rather typical cancer male. One of the things that prompted me to persue learning more about astrology, was how well my birth chart described me. It seemed to me a valuable area of knowledge opened up for me, that would make me a better reader.

Yet typical Cancer or no, the Male Cups cards have always been something of a challange to me. They feel like ill fitting gloves, and I am never really happy to see one in a spread. Take our friend here, sitting in his fine chair, surrounded by the lovely arch. Dressed in the best silks. The Nine of Cups, represents, Abundance, advantage, a healthy relationship in which differences have been resolved. Success, well being, wishes fullfilled. That from Melanies text.

Which I guess is part of the thing. Abundance, Wishes fullfilled, thats just never described my life. The reality I have lived with is that struggle has been the single constant of my life. Even in the emotional areana that is the primary focus of the cups cards. I personally have found it impossible to say I am content emotionally, when day to day survival is such an effort. So its an odd card to me, perhaps Im reacting more like the 4 to the 9, but its not a card I ever feel really applies in my world.

If it has to do with anything, my thought would be it has to do with Marina. If thats spelled right. A picture of Marina, is posted on the HTML version of this page. She is an 8 year old Columbian girl, and today I became her sponsor through Children International . Its something I have thought about for about a year. My own daughter is a grown woman now. She still lives with me, but her concerns are her job, her car, her man. Thats about as grown up as you need to get I think. So I have been thinking, the struggle for survival is not as fierce now as it was a few years ago. I usually have time to publish these essays, and I usually have a few dollars to save at the end of the paycycle. So I thought, its time to give a little back. I cant give much back, but if I wait till I'm rich so I can give much back, chances are I wont give anything at all. Rich is not in my future.

At the same time, I got alot more than I used to have. My daughter has lived through the worst of her troubles. I got a steady job with a leader in my industry. I think Mrs BB is coming to grips with some issues that have dogged her for years. Its not a bad moment in my life to embrace. Not a bad moment to do a little thanksgiving at the "Cratchet House." We'll never have it all, thats not about to happen. We got enough to share, a little, and thats saying something. Maybe, it did make sense this card should have come up today, after all.

Blessed Be, All.
BB.

Divination:Abundance, advantage, a healthy relationship in which differences have been resolved. Success, well being, wishes fullfilled.

Reversed:Lack of emotional fullfillment, material losses. And I would add, Issues unresolved cycles left incomplete. I think emotional baggage is definately reflected in this card.